GIGANTIC liliput.

The start of something big.

big, bigger, biggest!

it's one thing to miss the small things, which we shouldn't.
but with our attention to the little 'uns,
we shouldn't miss the big things, either.

I've got beegees in my head.

beeg -ees .. big ee... okokok haha

i really do though.

"how can you mend this broken heaaart.." WHAT THE SO SAPPY

but some meaningful lyrics.

I can think of younger days when living for my life,
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow,
but I was never told about the sorrow.

Please help me mend my broken heart
and let me live again.

Secret Wishlist.

I wonder what two-and-a-half-grand can get you (this Christmas)?

Apple imac - 24" edition dualcore 2.4ghz

mmmmmm.. tasty. it's the 24" and leopard OS that gets me.

Apple macbook - black version.

Crap, the matte black looks sooooo cool.

Or, if i go the PC route, i could get (close-to) the most kickass CPU on the market. With techspecs twice as powerful as any reddelicious above. feel the power...

Or...

What the!?

Yeah, i know. I could own a mercedes benz for under two-grand.

sadly, this is the cheapest of the lot.

eighteen-hundred from carsales.com.au.

I know what i'd be getting this Christmas.

A new pair of socks. (from Mom)

disclaimer* : Yes, i've never been the greatest mac supporter. that's because while macs are cool, they are always been inferior hardware wise to the mighty-pc. and i've always been a hardware man (techie). But with the new leopard OS, 24" imac, and matteblack macbook, macs have made it sooooo cool that cool > power. so there you go. just so you know. there's still no comparison power-wise though. hehehe.

ADHD

yes, i had a kokoblack icechocolate for dinner today. 'dinner'!

hahaha. gosh, what has become of me. meanwhile i'm still thinking about next year. i think it's gonna be mightycool in southbank.. can hardly wait. Lucy's assembling some kinda SBG (southbankgang). He can chair it if he wants.. i'll be the coffeemaker! (although i don't drink coffee)

I realise i don't actually mean what i say sometimes. Or rather, maybe i do. sorta? but it's not quite the words i had intended to say all along. So technically i mean something , but it comes out different (and not to the point). Duncan gives me a hard time about this, about all my 'maybe' and 'probably'. i suppose these things don't cut a good answer when you're looking for definitive.

meanwhile, there are a lot of things to look forward to. and also alot of pressing issues, lil bits and pieces to sort.

I had a long chat with DRT today. something like 5 hours. we got chased out of kokoblack. (1st time!) they actually asked if we would like to ask for the bill. so discreet! hahahahaha. oh btw kokoblack has two toilets not one! one is not labelled that's all. ok that's quite random. i guessed i was mildly surprised with the conversation (topics). before i know it, the evening's gone and i've missed ray's farewell. but i'll msg him.

too much for one day.
goodnight.

Dear You

you can always tell when something's on my mind. or if i'm deep in thought. of if i'm not feeling too good, or feeling very good. my face and my eyes say it all. i can't help it. but most times i'm as easy to read as the goodold Peter and Jane storybooks.

but not many can tell what exactly i'm thinking. or guess the trouble/fireworks brewing beneath the surface. hahaha. i think i'm like some kinda bak kut teh. can look savoury or terrible. can look different with all sorts of styles. (singpore whitepeppery or msia black and herbal) but you never know until you taste. (also, because its boiling, usually peppery, and got lotsa porkfats) hey that sounds like me.

ok bkt is a bad analogy. oh, btw, i like how John Bevere teaches in 'parables' too. ok that was so random.

but still.



i long for no one but You.
indeed one day in your courts is better

than a thousand elsewhere.


who can compare?
You are my all.
my one desire.
The One who saves
and does a good work in me.

let me search
and find that there is only You.

In You I place my trust. my hope.
my love.

Hosannah

I'm in Love.

There's something about Your Word.. that speaks to my heart.


Psalm 131

My heart is not proud, O LORD,
my eyes are not haughty;
I do not concern myself with great matters
or things too wonderful for me.

But I have stilled and quieted my soul;
like a weaned child with its mother,
like a weaned child is my soul within me.

O Israel, put your hope in the LORD
both now and forevermore.



1 John 4:7-11

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.
This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.



Matthew 22:37-40

Jesus replied:

'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'

This is the first and greatest commandment.

And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'

All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."



1 Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

不 能 说 的 秘 密

冷 咖 啡 离 开 了 杯 垫
我 忍 住 的 情 绪 在 很 後 面
拼 命 想 挽 回 的 从 前
在 我 脸 上 依 旧 清 晰 可 见
最 美 的 不 是 下 雨 天
是 曾 与 你 躲 过 雨 的 屋 檐

回 忆 的 画 面
在 荡 着 秋 千
梦 开 始 不 甜
你 说 把 爱 渐 渐
放 下 会 走 更 远
又 何 必 去 改 变
已 错 过 的 时 间
你 用 你 的 指 尖
阻 止 我 说 再 见
想 像 你 在 身 边
在 完 全 失 去 之 前

你 说 把 爱 渐 渐
放 下 会 走 更 远
或 许 命 运 的 签
只 让 我 们 遇 见
只 让 我 们 相 恋
这 一 季 的 秋 天
飘 落 後 才 发 现
这 幸 福 的 碎 片
要 我 怎 麽 捡

You are.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus
Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name
Jesus
Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising again I bless Your Name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus
Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name
Jesus
Lamb of God
Worthy is Your Name

Forever and Amen

brandi carlile

when time slows down.

This isn't a sprint event. it's an endurance race.
It ain't how you start. but how you finish.

sometimes each step gets heavier than the last. but time and again, when you lift up your head,
and look towards the finish line
you get into stride again
and something in you gives your legs strength
to keep going
forward
and may we run this race
in a manner that we yearn for the prize
help each other along the way
pick up the runners that fall alongside you
that we may all run this race
and finish
together

This isn't a sprint event. it's an endurance race.
It ain't how you start. but how you finish.

brandi carlile

brandi was really good. :) haha. i've also gotta admit she looks alot better in real life. :P i really enjoyed her performance! she's got some special voice. hahaha. okok i got to stand within a foot of her too (as a cameraman)

coming again in april. maybe then :)

The Story

woke up this morning to the glorious rays of golden morningsunshine piercing through my bedroom window.

and the sound of brandi carlile's voice inside my head! what the!

crap, i'm absolutely won over now. haha. yes, og, i eat my words on the mic proximity. her voice is excellent!

"technically wrong, but emotionally right" is how she describes it, in an interview with some reporter. there's no better description really.

but maybe that's precisely why it's so crazygood to listen to - i think you gotta be emotionally 'right' to be in tune with her music also. haha.

not for everyone initally, but give it some time and it really grows on you. :)

nov 12 was it!? yeahhhhhhh

meanwhile i've also got this massive headache that almost floored me when i first stood up getting out of bed. popping panadols at work now to get me through the day.

Psalm 103. Praise for the Lord's Mercies

A Psalm of David.


Bless the Lord, O my soul;
And all that is within me, bless his holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

The Lord executes righteousness
And justice for all who are oppressed.
He made known His ways to Moses,
His acts to the children of Israel.
The Lord is merciful and gracious,
Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.
He will not always strive with us,
Nor will He keep His anger forever,
He has not dealt with us according to our sins,
Nor punished us according to our iniquities.

For as the heavens are high above the earth,
So great His mercy toward those who fear Him;
As far as the east is from the west,
So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
As a father pities his children
So the Lord pities those who fear Him.
For He knows our frame;
He remembers that we are dust.

As for man, his days are like grass;
As a flower of the field, so he flourishes.
For the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
And its place remembers it no more.
But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting
On those who fear Him,
And His righteousness to children's children,
To such as keep His convenant,
And to those who remember His commandments to do them.

The Lord has established His throne in heaven,
And His kingdom rules over all.

Bless the Lord, you His angels,
Who excel in strength, who do His word,
Heeding the voice of His word.
Bless the Lord, all you His hosts,
You ministers of His, who do His pleasure.
Bless the Lord, all His works,
In all places of His dominion.

Bless the Lord, O my soul!




Nothing captures it better..

i'm actually blur, like sotong.

there's something about being close, and in tune with the Spirit, that makes it seem like.. yeah, really all things are possible! like there's something (One) bigger than life's complications. it is a calming sense of overwhelming peace, with a dash of inexpressible joy and hope. of a love that's always true. that never fails.

sometimes i do pray for more faith. to be more hungry for the Word. to have my eyes (not bags) see not as the world sees, but from God's perspective. an eternal perspective.

but, oftentime, we can't see past the next test. the next meeting. the next argument. etc.

the redeeming power of Jesus becomes so real when you come, just as you are. I tend to forget how close He really is. at times i go 'where are You?', and think He's really far away. But right then, He really is just close by. But my heart is at the time so far from Him, that i cannot see. my mind however, does remind me 'on autopilot' about what He has said in His Word. so even when i cannot see, or hear, i try to remember what He has said, and act accordingly. try.

but i fall short, more often than not. i'm inclined to think that when all You have is the Law, and not faith (in Christ Jesus), then invariably you fall short. when we live and act not according to the Spirit, but to the sinful nature.

Romans 3:21-23, Romans 8.

But a life in Christ, is so different! He's more than everything. greater than my desires. knows my every thought. knows my inequities, my unlawfullness and my insecurities. knows the deepestdarkest that i try to hide. and you can tell Him. how unworthy you are. and yet, He opens His arms, and says:

'Come.'

Come! what a response! is there no greater affirmation or acceptance of me. what of the terriblethings, the sillythoughts and things i maybe didn't do. i have been a man deserving nothing. am a man deserving nothing. let alone forgiveness. let alone a crown of Glory! let alone a promise and a hope, of a loving God who will neither leave me nor forsake me. and somehow, deep down. you just know. you know that's what you've always longed and hoped for.

talk about amazing grace.

all of a sudden, i'm remembering a sermon about curry. okok not about curry, but about substitutes. and in the love of Christ, indeed there are no substitutes that come close to comparision!

i sometimes think i care too much. people used to say i care too little.

no, i'm actually just blur. like sotong. the only difference is the love of Christ that changed this heart.

edit: i sorta wondered how many times Jesus asked people (or someone) to 'come'. So just from the Gospels.. (via biblegatewaysearch :P ) i think approx 40+ times?

John 6:35, 37 :)

35 Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.

37 All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.

Amen!