as a child

who then, shall be considered great in the kingdom of God?

He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.



committing to prayer, i think
is something i've learnt to enjoy :)

unexpected

the very word to describe everything.

Its my first sleepless night in 10years. Funny how its not because of architecture.

But rather, something much more.

foundations of architecture

the exam is tmr! haha.

im not sure what to think.

it feels like i know what im doing... but if you ask me a question from the notes, i... prob couldnt answer it? haha. there's a lot to memorise. i'm almost over this thing. just really psyching myself to go over everything just one more time. and again. and again. and. again. i should spell out exactly what i want to write for the thematic essay, for a more structured approach, but i just cant right now. haha maybe tmr.

for tonight! shortanswerquestions + 60 buildings shortlist. CMON

tmr - essay structure + go over everything again. sounds like a plan!

dates dates dates
thats the bit thats really killing me. hahaha.

meanwhile, lakers won! kb4mvp. couldnt ask for more really. just figured that i havent really written about it anywhere... so. here it is! i suppose i can claim i got to watch them live in their championship season :)

God's been really shaping me. everyday, its rollercoaster. in a good way, i suppose :) even when i think im getting used to stuff, and starting to grow comfortable again, stuff happens and i find myself back in that place again. but its all good :) always another opportunity to learn to rely on Him. been reading through an old book (which i cant seem to rem if ive done before or not) and finding good counsel in the words - rekindling a passion of mine :)

i think its a great challenge to desire more of an awareness, even. to be inclusive as opposed to exclusive. to see You in everyday, everything, everyone :)

mmmmmmmm

i never knew St Peter's in the Vatican City was built over where Peter died. haha. stuff you learn about in foundations of architecture?

:)

haha

the beauty of answered prayer :)

65'

Just handed in the ED essay today, 3000 words, 18 pages in about... hmmm. 9 hours? hahahaha. the dr in the house says i cut it close each time. i got it in a minute before the chute closes. it was exciting making it to the chute!! the dr gave me a lift and we were fighting through semipeakhour traffic to get there. it was tense, man. calling the turns and the lane changes just trying to save the couple minutes. and then bailing when we get to grattan st as i make a mad dash on foot across the uni grounds to the archi office.

well its in now isnt it? :) haha

i know i know i cut it close. i procrastinate. i dillydallyaround until lastminutepanic sets in. and even then, i wouldn't really call it panic.

but

Your grace keeps me going.

I sincerely sincerely sincerely need to work things out - see the bigger picture. regain passion and hope and love and faith and truth and be intentional in what i do

it's funny, really. there are intangible struggles that the world doesnt see, doesnt define as legitimate problems in the pursuit of success. weak, they call it. get over it. cmon stand up and move on.

i dont buy that.

you see, in my apparent weakness to the world, things change. shift. thoughtprocesses that were once unquestioned as concrete and 'the way the world works' begin to unravel as perhaps questionable. more than that, this state of helplessness then allows for someone greater to work in and through me, for a purpose greater than my own.

perspective.

T issued the challenge the other day. i sought refuge, escape and/or freedom. he pretty much told me to get back into it and learn to accept it.

i said there was no hope. i said if. maybe. probably (not). I said i was tired. of getting killed time and again.

he said hope. believe. hang on. resurrect. learn. and beyond everything, build a foundation.

so here i am.

hoping, believing, hanging on, dying and coming back, learning

and building.

that's what i do isnt it?

perspective

life can be viewed so many ways

perspective, eh?

sometimes it seems remarkably clear. i wonder why i dont see it sometimes. judgement clouded, heart stifled, mind without focus.

and then

_____ creeps in.

BUT

i will stand firm. i will put on the armour. i will trust, ask, and take heart.

for You are with me.

always, to the very end of the age.